jennohgoh

2012-01-02T21:44:00.004+08:00

人类，是世界上最任性最学不乖的动物。
这里可以很确定的是，少数，或者根本不会有人竟到这里听到我的心深。
是该难过，还是该快乐呢？

我，选择了：该快乐。

我的2011，一个人孤独的安静的过。
在别人眼里或许悲哀，但我却得到了平静。
一颗曾经为了莫个人，无法平静的心在2011里却平静的跳动着。

我，确实寂寞了。
我，也确实常感到孤独。
我，也想像很多人一样好好的恋爱。
可，在每当任何人一靠近时闭上眼看到的是曾经的悲伤，我不想伤害任何人。
同时，不想欺骗任何人。

2011 给了我的心一片宁静。
是朋友，就会明白。
不想多说什么，不想解释什么。
明白的，自然会明白。

我的2011，
谢谢SJ，让我好好的fangirl 一场。
谢谢那些爱我疼我的每一个，让我在寂寞孤独时还是好幸福。
谢谢那些困难，让我好好的干了好几场。
谢谢自己还健健康康的活着。

2011 是过去。
那些悲伤也跟着过去了，时间也冲淡了很多不快乐的回忆。

2012，我会再一次踏上起跑点。
我会过得比从前更好，更快乐，也更充实。

那些年我們一起追的女孩..

2011-11-21T17:36:00.002+08:00

昨天看了：那些年我們一起追的女孩..

说不上是不很棒的片，但对每个步入二十出头的我们，带来的是回忆。

我们曾经年轻过。
小学中学初级学院理工学院大学。
相同的经历，逼真的情景。
不能不唤起回忆。

那些暧昧的日子，受惩罚的日子。
一起努力念书，一起尽情玩耍。
让我十分佩服的是电影勾起回忆的能力。
仿佛是才昨天的事。

让我惊讶的是：太真实了！
仿佛把真实搬上大荧幕。

也明白了；人生很多事情都是徒劳无功的..

考试后回到工作岗位的第一天，我更确定我要快快乐乐的活着。更确定了很多很多。总有必需要牺牲的。

你们也好好活着吧！

特哥哥很快就会来了！

2011-11-14T17:06:00.002+08:00

又下雨了。

喜欢下雨前那一刻，刮风的那一刻。
外面刮着风，心却更平静。

回家的路上…

2011-11-10T17:36:00.001+08:00

天汽最近开始转凉了。
心，也跟着转凉了。

雨的味道让我怀念好多过去，不知不觉心又隐隐作痛。开始到了深夜就会感到寂寞。才不是因为是时候找个男朋友还是什么的。

是种空虚。
是那种明明忙得乱七八糟还是空虚。

似乎把自己逼的太紧了…

2011-11-03T17:30:00.001+08:00

回家的路上，下雨了。
绵绵细雨的。

最近睡的好少。因为赶作业几乎没时间睡。每天只睡三四个小时，有点累坏了。

2011-10-24T19:01:00.002+08:00

I think I happen to be in a very amazing fandom, which being part of the big elf family makes me feel very much in love.

these days, there's been so much news of SJ mistreated by SM.
uhh, i felt so too.

but what's been forgotten, blinded due to such mistreatment was, how much of love SJ's receiving from all over the world. look at how much international fans there are when there's SM TOWN in paris and new york? at how fast the tickets were gone at every single Super Show. at how much the fans are doing to see them.

it doesn't really matter who mistreated they are by SM anymore, isn't it?

SJ works hard, we work hard too.
we stay in love with neverending support and love.

i think, that's all that matters to them.

2011-10-20T19:08:00.001+08:00

你，相信命运吗？
相信所谓的使命吗？

最近，不，是自从搬到我所谓的「乡下」后，总在想或许我可以考虑在这里留久些。我好懒惰。懒得从新开始！

其实，是因为进了所谓的「超好赚」的行业。确实，造船业的确「超好赚」。在「超好赚」当下，也出了名的「难做」！其实，真的庆幸进了这行。这行的人事确实让我大开眼界！是多少人想要进来。天天看到那一艘艘好大好大的船只。看到的是从一片片铁造出那一艘艘大大的船！我似乎这辈子会在这行业！心里总觉得如果我从来没到这「乡下」地方，恐怕什么都不是。恐怕不能在两年内有了自己的舞台。

感谢上苍，让我感受到了很多很多的「不一样」。

离开，还是会离开。可，我可能会一直在造船业！这里，我「混熟了」！

现在，已经可以把「突发状况」当成「无所谓」后，「顺其自然」的解决。

我，一直渴望拥有自己的舞台。
我的那个舞台，只有我一个人。
因为只有一个自己，我的闪闪发亮才能得到更多的掌声。
嘿嘿！

或许在别人眼里，我很笨很白痴。因为三十六计走为上策啊！可我还在这里！像是活受罪，是活该，也可以说是胆怯。也更可以说是没本事到别的地方去。可是可是，从这造船业出去的每一个都是经历过了很多的「不容易」！

如果当初，我没进来这里，我不可能经历这些「惊心动魄」的一切。

从来没有后悔过，也很感谢学到了那么多！学到了很多就算到别的地方，也不可能学到或体会到的。

所以，是真心的朋友的话，请相信我并没有忘记我的舞台。虽然这里有着很多的不舍，但唯一能站在自己的舞台的路是现在所学到的一切。人事并不是读很多书就能做得好，而是轻身经历吸取经验才能做得好。真的只是暂时的待在这。

幸福的，快乐的，好好加油，好好活着吧！

我也会活的好好的！

2011-09-24T00:10:00.002+08:00

我的二十二：

一转眼就快过了
有着很多的忍耐
有着很多的第一次
有着很多的无奈
有着很多的想念
有着很多的努力
有着很多的心痛
有着很多的不舍得

更庆幸的是，
得到很多的感谢
得到很多的感动
得到很多的帮助
得到很多的恩赐
得到很多的谅解
得到很多的庆幸
得到很多的安慰

同样的，
今年我还是想一个人
今年我还是想安安静静的一个人
今年我还是想安安静静的一个人过生日
今年我还是想好好的为了一年来的委屈和无奈好好的痛哭一场
今年我还是想为了想念心中曾经的爱
今年我还是想以泪冲淡心中剩下的心痛
今年我还是想好好对待自己

更没忘了，
为了得到的帮助而感激
为了还呼吸着而感激
为了受到的安慰而感激
为了一直一直守护我的她们而感激
为了努力后看到的成绩而感激
为了自己好好的又快过了一年而感激
为了一直都爱自己的所有而感激

感谢在自己快看不清前面的路时，给与安慰支持的所有
感谢在自己块放弃时，给与鼓励的所有
感谢在自己彷徨茫然是，给与力量的所有
感谢在自己怀疑自己的能力时，给有信任的所有
感谢在自己痛时，给与快乐的所有

一个人，我还是可以好好的。

2011-09-24T00:01:00.002+08:00

是时候把过去丢的一干二净，把过去当成一场噩梦。
在收拾房间时，找到了回忆。
闭上眼，还是会心痛。
放，是放下了。
痛，还是会痛。

我，快二十三了。
还有好多好多想完成的事。
还有好多好多想去的地方。
同时，也不该再把自己关在自己的世界里。

2011-07-25T22:54:00.001+08:00

these days, i no longer know what i'm doing. it's late at night, i realise life's going to be even tougher. i realise that deep down i no longer know what i need, or want. even if i do know what i need or want, i fear. so much so, that i've got no idea who to confide in. i feel like crying. i feel like i've became vulnerable. i feel i've lost myself while looking for a way out of this mess. i feel like i'm breaking down. in need of a listening ear, a shoulder to rely on..

2011-07-10T00:22:00.002+08:00

原来时间已经过了多过两年了。
这两年多，我看到了感受到了现实的残酷比我想象中的来的更残酷。
两年间，几乎毫无联络的生活。
不痛了。

因为我变了。
不需要让别人看到不快乐的过去。
更不需要让别人看到软弱的自己。
两年，我更明白自己需要的，想要的是什么。
实际点，世界不可能为了我在任何时候停止。

现在，我一个人也很快乐。
不需要好好的道别。
因为没有必要。
抱歉并不能让时间倒流，不能让事情假装没发生过。

2011-06-27T22:17:00.002+08:00

i really couldn't deny the satisfaction i had.
no doubt, i had no fear of failing.
well, i knew i will pass, the problem is, how well am i going to do.
i, improved.
my cumulative GPA went up to, 4.29.
i know i made my parents proud.

keep fighting.

i realise, ss3 being over for 5 months.
memories are fresh.
and i look forward to ss4 in sg.
to see my fav oppa once more.

2011-05-18T23:21:00.002+08:00

why so hot?

2011-05-09T23:32:00.001+08:00

예성이특 대박!

대박! 대박! 대박! 대박!

좋아! 좋아! 좋아! 좋아!

2011-05-09T23:13:00.002+08:00

my heart feels heavy.
today, i was told.

"you can't possibly never to touch what you don't wish to do"

uh..

it has come to a point, unwilling, don't wish to.
but still i need to learn, need to do.

it's beneficial to me, i know.

but still...

오빠 사랑해

2011-04-30T21:26:00.002+08:00

date: 30 Apr 2011
time: 9:27pm

it's a long weekend once more.
you know i love it isn't it.

am doing nothing meaningful, neither constructive.
listening to seoulfm cause' it's superjunior special.
aww, i need no itunes to have superjunior all night non-stop.

yes, i am enjoying life.

****

how have i been these days, i wonder too.
have been thinking about what do i really want to achieve.
what about you?
the saying, "begin with the end in mind".
you know about it too?
someone i met recently, enlightened me that this should be the way life is lived.
i want to give a good enough life to my family, thats what i want in life.
that's my end.
then, how am i going to achieve?

these days i felt i've changed a little more than i had.
to survive, politics have never stopped letting themselves made known.
that's the way to live, that's the way to survive i suppose.
i did the same.

these days my life's all about work, school, family, friends and... superjuni-or!
it's nothing.
but it meant a hell-load t me.

dearest dearest,
have a safe trip.
사랑해.

2011-04-19T00:03:00.002+08:00

人，是可怕的。
人，因为七情六欲总是徘徊着。
就像现在一样。

我，
有很多的不舍得，
有很多的不放心，
有很多的不得已。

现在，或许看起来似乎什么都不管。
但，不是不要管，也不是不想管。
而是，不敢管。

自己心理有数，管得越多就会更放不下。
我，很相管。　
我，很想说这根本不是对的解决方式。
我，很想说面对现实吧。　
我，更想说我们不是让他们一直踩在脚底下的。

但，我努力了。
同时也尽力了。
决定不是一时的冲动，也不是意气用事。
而是考虑了很久才做的决定。
这里，不是不好。
人，也不是不好。
只是我有我的梦想，有我的未来。
我也有我要走的路。
总不能因为人情一直留下。
虽然不能确定未来会比这里好。
但至少，我为了未来和梦想曾经努力过。

在这里的，是会跟着我一辈子。
我，不会忘记。

你，会明白的。
对吧？

Super Junior K.R.Y - In My Dream

2011-04-17T23:26:00.002+08:00

keep giving them lots of love.
while i fight hard for my own dream too..

2011-04-10T01:07:00.003+08:00

when BOF was the in thing,
kim hyun joong and ss501 became my craze.
bcause of them, i chanced upon this vid that i had a changed of heart.
teukie made me went ga-ga over his cuteness.

and i superjunior became part of my life.
it's been ... more than a year.

awwww!
to think i'm 23..

2011-04-09T23:51:00.002+08:00

please give them lots of love..

2011-04-09T23:19:00.001+08:00

2011-04-06T23:04:00.002+08:00

i'm very much amazed how great, how much warmth kyuhyun's voice is.
teukie oppa's the best, always.
i love eunhyuk, heechul, ryeowook.
sometimes donghae too.
these days, to find vids &photos of kyuhyun for hazey.
i realised how great a voice kyuhyun has.
not kidding.

i'm fighter.
always.

i've yawn more than 20 times in 30mins.
time to sleep.
goodnight.

2011-03-31T23:55:00.002+08:00

오빠,

i had a bad day.
i felt my heart ache when i realised i'm feeling more disappointed than i was yesterday.
i had no one to turn to.
nobody had the time for me.
i realised, indeed i'm all alone.
i asked, who am i fighting for?
am i still a fighter?
i'm a little too tired out after fighting.
the over-reliance.
the extreme workload.
the tiresome burden.

i feel, i should stop being a fighter.

2011-03-28T21:35:00.001+08:00

it's hard.
bt i shall hang in thr.
please remember,
leaving comfort zones are rly tough.

♥

2011-03-27T21:01:00.000+08:00

i shall keep loving.

2011-03-27T01:18:00.002+08:00

day by day, when we continue growing up,
in such complicated surroundings.
we start becoming complicated.
afterall we need to adapt to such complicated surroundings to survive.
when we start becoming complicated,
please do not forget where we all started out,
when things were all simplified.

as i continue growing up,
in such complicated surroundings.
i realised.
i've changed to adapt to such surroundings.
afterall, i need to survive.

i've not forgotten how i started out.
i've not forgotten the faith i had.
i've not forgotten the reasons for fighting.
i've not forgotten the love showered.
neither have i forgotten,
i need to love simply.

facts that i took years to understand,
facts that i went in rounds to get hurt and learnt.
i'd remember why lessons need to be taught.

i'd keep reminding myself.
my faith.
my fights.
the love showered.

i'd keep reminding myself.
stay simple.
bt never naive & gullible anymore.

i'd keep reminding myself.
never to lose the one right at the beginning.

i'd keep reminding myself.
opinions can change.
things can change.
many more can change.

bt, i shall never lose myself.

no matter how tough it's going be.
no matter no matter ..

keep the faith.

&these years i learnt,
being able to breathe every other day is a gift.

2011-03-24T22:08:00.001+08:00

M To M - Nothing more than trash to you

2011-03-24T22:02:00.001+08:00

CN Blue - Love in the rain

CN Blue - Intuition

Big Bang - Tonight

2011-03-23T22:54:00.001+08:00

i love it when they just play arnd tgt..

2011-03-23T22:02:00.001+08:00

2011-03-23T21:43:00.000+08:00

you'd know why i love him.

2011-03-22T23:52:00.000+08:00

have a good laugh at heechul oppa ^^

2011-03-22T22:43:00.001+08:00

can you believe, he's 28? ♥

2011-03-21T22:17:00.002+08:00

sukira's livestreaming playing.
tweeter feeds kept coming in.

i thank god for giving a few hours of break.
이특 오빠, makes my heart beats faster every night.
nothing beats sitting by the window with my laptop every other night.

it's amazing life is this way.
i'm thankful i'm breathing, healthily.
you?

the japan's earthquake made be more thankful for being able to breathe every moment.
i've gave a recap of the past 8 years.
i had a tough-for-the-heart 8years.
i loved, i hurt, i loved again, i hurt again.
with a life revolving living for others.
i learnt, stay strong.

8years ago.
i met someone who changed my life.
i met someone who taught me what trying for someone that matters meant.
we didn't make it through, bt a special bond remained.
we were friends, we fell in love, we went separate ways, we are friends.
life's sweetest when i have my family, the girls, and junie around me.
bt, life's even sweeter than sweetest when every year without fail.
i get wishes from someone even if we had barely spoke in the year.
no matter how many wishes i've forgotten.
i've never forgot someone's.
this is god-sent love, a special bond that i want to maintain for my entire life.

about 6years ago.
i met another who further changed my life.
i met someone who taught me to love myself more, fight but never too hard that it may kill.
since then, now, i love myself even more.
i learnt, what could make or break me.
i learnt, what could kill.
i learnt, what makes me stronger.
of course i learnt, what couldn't kill made me stronger.
it took me years pondering what went wrong.
bt it took me a minute to stop crying and decided to leave it behind.
it took me almost 2years to stop reminding what had happened,
to put things behind, somewhere deep within the heart.
&thereafter, i started breathing w my heart once more.

i, thank god for the past 2 chapters in life.
good or bad, happy or sad.
it may have hurt too much.
bt what didn't kill, made me much more stronger.
i got hurt, the girls and junie loved me even more to help me heal.
i know i've got to love them even more since then.

i no longer cry over what had happened.
i no longer hate, neither love he who made me hurt.
it no longer hurt.

from then on, i shall continue breathing frm the heart deep within.
from then on, i'd still keep loving.
cause' there was a reason for all these.

사랑해 ♥

2011-03-13T00:51:00.002+08:00

do you feel, at times you really hate yourself on why certain decisions are made?
i do, right now.

many had been telling me:
"just quit your job and study full time la"
"just get a part time job lo"

but hey, not everyone can afford to do any of the above by the way!
at least i can't really afford to do so.
i admit, i'm sick of such life.
and i do admit i do feel retarded to decide to study PT.
and i do do do admit i feel exhausted.

i mean, it's really tough.
and i'm not kidding.
if you think i'm kidding, try it.
i'm sleep deprived.
i'm stressed out.
i'm tired and exhausted.
i've got no time for myself at all.

and i got 55 for my law grp assignment.
well, i knew it..

2011-03-02T00:16:00.000+08:00

i almost died laughing at this after bigbang's parody. HAHAHA

2011-03-02T00:08:00.000+08:00

2011-02-28T23:26:00.002+08:00

110227 Sukira Eunhyuk singing 기억을 걷는시간

2011-02-27T23:38:00.001+08:00

2011-02-25T00:24:00.002+08:00

i feel like a soldier, too exhausted to fight.
i feel like my heart's in pain.
i feel like it's too hard to breathe.

i never wanted to abandon.
i never wanted to.
my hunger for satisfaction, challenges.
i need to satisfy.
&stepping out of comfort zone isn't an easy task.

2011-02-22T23:59:00.001+08:00

this is why i ♥ 이특.

Super Junior M - 太完美

2011-02-22T00:16:00.003+08:00

a really hot hyuk.

2011-02-20T21:43:00.002+08:00

for the first time since school started.
i feel like crying because of the assignments.
i've got a terrible flu, sore throat, body ache for the entire day.
i thought i completed my part for the law assignment and, i further realise that it's not even 50%of what is needed.
i tried doing spss for stats but all that was generated gave me plenty of question marks for the texts.
all the people i've asked tell me they don't know.
IF NOT THEY DON'T EVEN BOTHER TO REPLY?!
damn you idiots, don't expect me to help you in future i tell you.

i got school tmr.
dubai's coming tmr.
i can't take leave.
neither do i dare to even see a doc because i will be given mc.

even superjunior cannot make me feel better.

goodbye.

and please be good and give me the results i want.

assholes.

TO THOSE WHO ALWAYS IGNORE ME,
PLEASE JUST GO N DIE.
assholes.
AND DON'T EXPECT ME TO REPLY WHEN YOU NEED HELP.

2011-02-20T16:17:00.000+08:00

everytime i fall sick, i feel like giving up school.
really.

♥ superjuni-or

2011-02-20T00:22:00.006+08:00

i think i'm mad.
i think i'm insane.
all because of super junior.

bonamana cost me $38.95.
i've got scar on my toes because of the heels that hurt just to go all the way, from harboufront to cityhall after work to look for the repackaged.
i took leave to do assignment but ended up spending half a day looking for people doing pre-order for sj-m's album.
i listen to sukira every night when i could till 11 even though i don't understand 90% of what they r talking.
i've got 1047 pictures of them as at today, increasing every single day.
3/4 of my twitter appearing on my timeline r fanclubs' tweet.
i watch at least 1 video relating to them every single night no matter how tired.
i watch all the shows they go to, even if the show isn't nice.
i've got all the songs from 2nd album.
i saved like mad to go to SS3 with my sis when the tix cost me a bomb.
i went all the way to far east plaza to get imported lightsticks when i heard they r not bringing in official merchandise initially which they ltr announced they will 1 day after i bought it.
i spent so much on the tix and album and others, when i don't even bear to spend the same amount on iphone 4, clothes, shoes, bags.
i could have used the money to get iphone 4, longchamp bag.
i have a 120 different pictures of leeteuk in a collage for my desktop wallpaper.
my theme for firefox and msn is superjunior.
even with shinee and dbsk, i'm still mad about superjunior
even i've got practically no one to bitch about superjunior.
thnk god hazel's loving kyuhyun too, though i think my craze is more than ten folds of hers.
thnk god my neighbour's love for them helped me to get alot more info and merchandise of theirs.
i feel disappointed when leeteuk's enlisting this yr.

omfg. i think i'm rly mad.
mad to the max.

Ryeowook - Smile Again

2011-02-15T23:41:00.002+08:00

i swear wookie's live version is way too much nicer than the mp3.
even fatfat agrees!

2011-02-13T21:11:00.003+08:00

on the eve of valentine's.
im doing my assignments.
thinking about what i should be doing for valentine's.

well, i've got classes.

well, hazel has got jieqin.
twinnie has got alvin.
dearest has got leo.

i got myself.

well at least, i don't need to worry about having fights with bf.
i do envy, bt i guess thr r more reasons not to have a bf.

thr r times late at night, i feel i'm pretty tired about the way things r for certain things.
sometimes, i feel a sting in the heart thinking about the past.
the way things used to hurt.
the way i've cried.
the way many things were.
it's all over, i know.
bt sometimes humans couldn't help but think of the past.
yes no?
sometimes i feel, i'm glad it happened.
yet sometimes i wish it was all a dream.

&now, i wish life be better.

well, i still cry when times are tough.
the only difference is, i cry on my own.
well, however tough it is..

one day it'd be better.

♥ 오빠

it's okay, i've got teukie, hyukie, wookie &heenim.
&i'd have sj-m sing to me.

DBSK/TVXQ - Why? (Keep Your Head Down)

2011-02-13T20:04:00.000+08:00

110209 Eunhyuk - I'm Yours Cut

2011-02-12T23:22:00.000+08:00

110117 Leeteuk Sungmin - Dancing DBSK Keep your head down @ KTR

2011-02-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

[110209] Sukira - Eunteuk cant stop laughing!( must watch!)

2011-02-12T23:17:00.000+08:00

2011-02-05T00:31:00.001+08:00

MY NEW YR RESOLUTION IS:
TO BE HAPPIER&HEALITHIER,
WHICH IS THE SAME FOR ALL,
ESP MY FAMILY N FRIENDS.

with love,
jennoh.

2011-01-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

translated lyrics:
We met for seven years
No one knew we would say goodbye this easily
However we still separated
With the memories we built for a long time, now gone
How did we at such a young age
Meet each other, I don’t even remember how
Difficult for us to handle the maps of our changing selves
They said saying goodbyes are painful
But I didn’t even have time to feel that
I just thought this is the way staying composed
But I cried
Time passed it gave me a simple yearning
Different from what my mind was seeing
At first friends then next as lovers
We said we’d stay as friends even if we separated
During those 3 years spent alone
We contacted each other sometimes
Even if I met someone else again
Even I loved again
Whenever I was sad I would call you without a word just tears falling
You have to meet a good person
I thought in my heart without any words
I asked if you still liked me without any thought hoping you say it back
I know
We had the most pure love
Back then we thought that kind of love couldn’t be done again se we saved it in out memories
Often I feel a cold feeling from you
But now I know you can not ask anything
“I’m getting married” is what you said to me
After that for a long time I was speechless
Then I cried they were your last words to me
For the only words I wanted to hear was that you loved me

2011-01-24T23:58:00.002+08:00

for a moment, thr r words that kept ringing in my mind.
i couldn't help, but the sadness is building up within.
19months ago, i met a man and a woman.
i met a team of kind-hearted souls.
they were mentors of my life for the past 19months.
its my obligation to repay such kindness that was undeserved.
when times were tough, when i thought of giving up.
they offered their helping hands, they taught me, guided me.
how can i abandon those who've helped me moved into my new stage in life.
when i wanted to further my studies, they gave me their support.
times are tough, and will be tougher.
i will not abandon those who've helped me through.

i'm, disappointed.
i know how it feels to be abandoned by those you've guided.

i'm sick of such nonsensical, immature actions.
i'm sorry but i'm disappointed deep down.
the stress within is building up.
the thought of departure this friday, the thought of how much tougher it can get.
i breathed, harder.

i'd just need a good cry.

100814 SHINee - I'm yours + I'll be missing you + Juliet

2011-01-24T23:42:00.000+08:00

101021 Eunhyuk Dancing to Trax Perf & Singing "I'm Yours"

2011-01-09T14:05:00.000+08:00

Super effort

2011-01-09T14:03:00.000+08:00

Super effort

2011-01-02T22:40:00.000+08:00

i'd find time for new yr resolutions. lol

2011-01-02T20:30:00.000+08:00

2011-01-01T22:41:00.004+08:00

amazing yonghwa!

tht's why DBSK's strongest pool of fans ever.

2010-12-30T22:53:00.001+08:00

2010-12-30T21:34:00.002+08:00

2010-12-29T23:49:00.002+08:00

2010-12-25T20:40:00.001+08:00

2010-12-23T15:34:00.003+08:00

okay, i know the entire world's going to think i'm a liar when i said i'm in danger of repeating OB. so apparently, i rly didn't do v well for OB.
i worry bout it every day for the past month okay.
lol.

and of course, nothing beats getting tix for ss3.
i didn't get rly good seats.
but satisfied.

it's a happy day today.
though deep down, thr r issues i'm unhappy about.

well well, never judge a book by its cover.
never ever trust someone else because of its cover.
i'm never going to trust you..
never again.

am going to take a nap ^^

2010-12-17T23:33:00.002+08:00

2010-12-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

thr's a little part of me inside feeling all upset.
i feel very much like crying.
i feel very much tired of living such a life.
i feel i'm breathing harder than yesterday, much harder than a year before.
with 9 days to the release of results.
i couldn't help but feel worried.
with 2010 coming to an end.

where am i heading.

if only there's someone to listen.
a shoulder to lie on.
just for a while..

athena OST, I love you by taeyeon

2010-12-13T22:29:00.001+08:00

2010-11-27T18:51:00.001+08:00

i'm spending like i'm earning 3k per month.
give me a pay rise?

i bought a dress at $45 aft discount without thinking.
lol.

2010-11-26T21:37:00.001+08:00

im saying byebye to my bangs in 2011.
but i'm keeping the black.
i'm keeping the curls.

i'd miss the black n the curls.
and i've got not much money to do so.

stay natural.
lol.

2010-11-25T22:46:00.002+08:00

this exam has been a good wake up call.
will blog more when i'm feeling better.

time heals.
i'm not lying.
i once thought i was in love, bt now i feel it was a dream.
a dream that never was near reality.
it hurt.
bt it no longer does.
so, time rly heals.

had mere 3hours+ of sleep last night,
no, this morning.
off to sleep.

nighty nightnight.

2010-11-23T22:28:00.003+08:00

today can't exist without yesterday, and there will be no tomorrow without today.

i had a bad day.
a real depressing day.
i cried.
and it didn't help a little.
kdrama didn't help.
leeteuk's "today can't exist without yesterday, and there will be no tomorrow without today" helped.

i reflected.
i didn't and not going to do well this time.
because i spent alot more time on work.
and kdrama, kpop.
it's not going to happen again.
i've learnt, will learn a good lesson.
i may have to repeat the course, or have to resit the exam.
it's going to be a real good wake up call.
uni's no joke.
if spending 300+ bucks to learn a lesson.
i'm going to work even harder.
breathe even harder.

but please, let me pass.
just pass will do ..

2010-11-22T13:43:00.001+08:00

exams really do suck.
it's making me even more tired.

im like some old woman.
omo.

2010-11-19T16:50:00.002+08:00

有时候就没有办法不去担心。
어떻게 ..

2010-11-18T18:22:00.001+08:00

i'm only resting for 10mins.
yippe! suju's having the own talk show starting 5th dec.
oh teukie hyukie ~

2010-11-18T13:53:00.001+08:00

i'm missing work.

2010-11-18T11:45:00.001+08:00

Super Junior - Shining Star

shining star, like a little diamond, makes me love ♥

lets make everyday lovely

2010-11-18T11:16:00.001+08:00

2010-11-17T13:01:00.001+08:00

blogspot? wordpress? tumbler? onsugar?
change or remain?

2010-11-14T23:43:00.003+08:00

desktop wallpaper.

이특 ♥

ps, i didn't do up the pictures. i don't have that much of teukie's photos anw.
aww, ♥ ♥ ♥ !

okay, back to my books.
kudos to the fellow who posted online.
ㅋㅋㅋ!

2010-10-28T23:56:00.001+08:00

sometimes, it just sucks.
because the girls don't seem to be around.

okay, mayb i've never been around.
thats why.

goodnight.

2010-10-24T14:29:00.002+08:00

i'm so fucking sick and tired of work.
i swear i'm reaching my limit.
it's SUNDAY hello.
and i'm being questioned by work.
like hello, i'm not your maid.
knowing more things doesn't mean i need to answer all your questions.
doesn't mean i need to sit beside you everytime to answer all your questions.
i think it has come to a point that even you are taking things for granted.
in the first place, it's NOT supposed to be my work.
i'm doing it due to the handling over, FOR THE TIME BEING only.
and now, i'm doing it FOR GOOD.
and bt the way, you are getting all the credits while I do the work.

period.

2010-10-23T00:05:00.001+08:00

to the one with a special place,
happy birthday.

it touches my heart to know you've always remembered.
every year.
it became a time machine without fail.
there's no photos for memory keepsake.
there's practically nothing left for keepsake.
but memories are staying, remembered.
esp in october, every year.
i see where you stand, and i see that i still stand.
there was a time i felt i'm nowhr.
but you made me felt otherwise.
thanks for being someone with a special place within me.
생일축하.

and, IMMA GOING FOR SUPERSHOW 3 WITH MY SIS.
A WHOPPING 400+ BUCKS.

okay, shall eat grass till cny.

안녕 :)

2010-10-22T00:21:00.000+08:00

thr are times, when you're sick of being alone.
like now.

안녕.

2010-10-19T23:59:00.002+08:00

omo.
i grew 3 pimples at one go.
i'm really stressed.
lol.

i've decided to take lesser mods, like 4.
lol.
i talked to garrick and wyman, and my colleagues.
conclusion is, i'm taking lesser mods.
3 core and 1 ucore.
mayb, even 2 core and 1ucore.

all assignments have been submitted.
like finally!
but exams will be here in less than a month.
fighting!

SS3, anyone?

2010-10-18T00:33:00.002+08:00

omo.

i really feel like dying with numbers-related mods.
i really hate QM like fuck.
i really going to hate stats too.
omo omo omo!

i've got no clue. ZERO CLUE for QM assignment.
&i think i need to depend VERY VERY MUCH on my grpmates aderlyn and angel ):
i've become a free rider which i hate like bananas.
OMO.

I REALLY FEEL LIKE DYING ALL BECAUSE OF QM.
teukie and taeminnie's ezlink sticker does not make me feel better.
oh sucks.

I can't wait to have the damn QM submitted.
to breathe a little before i start to mug for exams.
okay, breathe a little before i'd have a worse time.

AND I HAVEN'T CHOSE MY MODS.

damn hole getting bigger and deeper.
24hours not enough.

okay, an-nyeong.

2010-10-13T23:11:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling damn sian about the whole thing.
so sian that i feel like killing.

2010-10-12T23:26:00.002+08:00

birthdays are really quite a good way to see where you stand.
but i guess, somehow fb makes it a little less sincere.

i had lunch with layjun.
i had lunch with family.
i had dinner with the girls.
i had rest, manicure, completing of assignments.

i received plenty of love.
to those who really did remembered, thanks.
to those who have forgotten, i understand.
to those who wished with the help of reminder from fb and other means, thanks as well.

a year ago, or few years back since, there's always someone whom i looked forward for a birthday wish from.
and these years, i never failed to receive.
and it's the same this year.
there are things i realise, whom may have changed.
people have changed but memories stayed.
it's a kind of bliss that no matter how many years have passed, you are not forgotten.
it's been the .... 7th year?
thanks for remembering without fail for the past 7 years.

the girls, have been a wonderful bunch of girlfriends.
and perhaps, they will be the ones that i'm going to stick with for life.
we've grown, quarrelled, stand by each other.
it's been 5years?
for wherever we're all heading towards, we are sticking.
they have been there without fail.
they have been a reason to stay alive, to stay happy for.
because twinnie makes me laugh till my cheeks are tired.
because kaiwei's caring for us so motherly.
because hazel's coolness is making us roll eyes and laugh.
because yujin's complementing the rest of us.
because we love each other, haha.
because we are going to stay in the same block in future and be godmothers to twinnie's 8kids.
thank you girls so muchie..

layjun, there's nothing to say because she's irreplaceable.

to layjun, the girls, wyman, garrick, eug, hidayah, my colleagues, my cousins, my sec school mates.
thank you for remembering.

i've had a good rest.
i'm going to fight even harder from now onwards.

nightnight!

2010-10-03T18:54:00.001+08:00

ACE!

2010-10-01T22:12:00.000+08:00

2010-10-01T21:33:00.001+08:00

do you, you you and you remember my birthday?
i want to meet you you you and you for birthday

2010-09-27T21:44:00.001+08:00

曾经以为只要做到大家所希望的，就会快乐。
其实，只有做自己想要的。
才会快乐。

你，快乐吗？

2010-09-26T21:03:00.002+08:00

the most amazing thing about work is i learnt that life's this way.
when someone first said, "jennoh, life's like this. whether you like it or not, you still need to do it"
and life's really like this.

whether we like it or not, we still have to do it.
yes, life's in our own hands.
but, humans are bound by circumstances.
and there are too many times when we have to sacrifice in exchange.

it's only when we grow up, get done and over with the compulsory education, and go to work.
then will we learn.
that life's never going to be smooth.
that life's something that you need to adapt, and accept certain reality of life.

god's been really kind to me.
i'm working, earning.
i've got superiors that are coaching, giving me this much of opportunities.
i'm getting a deg.

but, i've been thinking about who are the friends.
frankly, i really don't know.
because i feel there are friends who'd never speak up about how they feel, and their troubles.
because i feel there are friends who you thought you meant quite alot to them, but perhaps it wasn't that way.
because i feel there are friends who'd never share their joy and sadness with.
because there are friends whom i felt i don't know what is going in their life.

i'm turning 22 in 3 weeks.
then, where are we going for a party?

2010-09-18T23:35:00.001+08:00

training ground for mental strength.

2010-09-18T20:54:00.002+08:00

the trend of removing music of live performances for k-idol really differentiates the fab singers.

hongki's really fab.

compared without music removed.

2010-09-18T00:34:00.000+08:00

it's tough,
but the satisfaction is breathtaking.

2010-09-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

new love.

2010-09-12T22:48:00.003+08:00

it feels like a wrong decision.
i miss myself alot.
i miss watching dramas alot.
i miss chatting with people i used to, which i no longer alot.
i miss layjun.
i miss the girls.

i just miss all the above alot alot.
retail therapy is nothing but nonsense.
to be exact, crap.
i don't take photos anymore.
i don't do alot of things anymore.
i feel like i'm changing too quickly because of work.
i feel like work has become the reason why i'm alive.
which it shouldn't and never should.

i feel like i'm dying inside from all the stress at work.
i feel like giving up on fighting to even survive.
survive, and not to move higher.
it becomes so scary.
that there's no room for mistakes.
people are out there, seeing how long it takes for you to fall into their traps.
i struggle, we struggle.
just to keep ourselves safe.
for survival.

스트레스!

2010-09-06T23:56:00.002+08:00

i felt i could barely breathe.
the only time i'm alive is late at night.
nothing but 이특 은혁.

ouch.
i feel a tinge of pain inside.
i feel i'm living for nothing.
i feel i've achieved nothing.
i feel i've been like a maid.
i feel i've been taken advantage of.
i feel i've been made use of.

people come and go.
so do friends.
how many's staying then.
ouch ouch.

i'm hitting the beds, 안녕!

2010-09-05T23:40:00.002+08:00

they say, you feel less happier when you grow up.
that's because you start to think more, worry more.

frankly, i've got no religion.
frankly, i don't believe in being superstitious.
frankly, i don't believe in fengshui.
i believe life's in our own hands.
it's my life, i need and want to live it the way i want.
and i know, i'm self-centered.

they say, librans are born communicators.
but, librans are lonely.
because they are born communicators, they really do talk alot.
but, librans are not able to communicate what they feel deep down.

my hot temper's back.
i'm really easily irritable.

frankly, when life's tough i don't know who to ring.
i don't know who to look for.
everyone seems busy.
busy with the boyfriends, busy with their other friends.

it's late at night, when i couldn't sleep no matter how tired i'm feeling.
it's frustrating.
it's irritating.
it's helpless.

to those who wants me to fall, i'm sorry it's not happening.
to those who never wanted me to succeed, i'm sorry that i'm proving you wrong.
to those who never see a point in lending a helping hand, i'm sorry that i'd do the same.

jennohgoh

那些年 我們一起追的女孩..

回家的路上…

Super Junior K.R.Y - In My Dream

♥

110227 Sukira Eunhyuk singing 기억을 걷는시간

Super Junior M - 太完美

♥ superjuni-or

Ryeowook - Smile Again

DBSK/TVXQ - Why? (Keep Your Head Down)

110209 Eunhyuk - I'm Yours Cut

110117 Leeteuk Sungmin - Dancing DBSK Keep your head down @ KTR

[110209] Sukira - Eunteuk cant stop laughing!( must watch!)

100814 SHINee - I'm yours + I'll be missing you + Juliet

101021 Eunhyuk Dancing to Trax Perf & Singing "I'm Yours"

Super effort

athena OST, I love you by taeyeon

lets make everyday lovely

안녕 :)

那些年我們一起追的女孩..